What would it be like to be more curious about my own emotions?
This question is my from the Feel Better Guide's opening moments today.
I am curious about what you're reading, your best minilesson ideas, Google extensions, and Zoom features.
I am curious about new mentor texts, new podcasts, new bloggers to follow.
I'm going to ask you about your parents, and about your children, too.
And more and more, I'm learning to begin coaching sessions with "How do you feel, today?" really emphasizing the today so I don't get the automatic response of "fine" "ok" "good, I'm good". If I don't ask with authentic curiosity and create time for this conversation, we'll miss meaningful opportunities to do real work inside our coaching.
But: I'm not being curious enough with myself. I don't embrace or cultivate quiet in my own life, and do not let my own thoughts creep up. When they arrive, my body wants to move, and I push back at stillness. I've learned to rush-rush-rush toward to-do lists or tech distractions (unanswered emails haunt me, yet I also give them too much power).
So it's time to change that, and this week of vacation is an opportunity to do self-work (not self-care - self-work). I've carved out time, written it on my calendar. I've asked my husband and son for support, and now I'm sharing this commitment here, with you, too. I'm taking a breath or two even as I type this Slice, because I'm feeling nervous, like a beginner who wants to be an expert without doing the work - impatient with myself, not giving myself grace to be a learner, to be curious about me.
I've got some guidance and tools, but mostly, I've ensured I have the time, a resource I'm apt to give away, fill up or hoard for work. Slicing this month has shown me that I can do hard things, consistently (and when I flub, I can try again). So like my pup below, nose sniffing in the wind, empty beach in front of me, I will step forward and forward and forward into me, with curiosity and care and commitment to myself.
Here I go.